David's Life™

Renovation:

2005-09-23T20:31:00.000+08:00

Well this is still an ongoing project. I decided to overhaul my room, into something that better reflects my persona. I started with tearing everything on my wall, and then sanding down my whole wall. Many of ya'll who have been in my room will understand how hard it must have been to tear down the whole left wall of montages. Well Pictures speak better I got some pic's to better pigmentate my idea.

Seafood:

2005-08-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

Trip to Kampong Asli Danga [Malaysia]

Trip Pictures:
10/08/2005

Update:

2005-08-14T21:24:00.000+08:00

Well to keep it real short, and sharp. Everything well went well with my mum. She came out of the operation on Monday the 8th with good reports and in great health. I thank everyone who sent all those emails to me. I am sorry that I did not reply the emails individualy but I left for a short de-stress trip on wed: and replying over a hundred emails was the last thing on my mind.

I again thank everyone and the various churches who have been with me through this. I would perhaps blog about all the events that occured a few weeks later. When I am healed of this immense event that shook my Life. My mum sends her regards to everyone too.... I leave you with flowers and baskets that was sent to my mum God Bless.

Scotch:

2005-08-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

Today morning my mom will be operated on, and I am still stuck in a sub lime state. I am so worried. If God decides to have other plans, I will finally be an orphan. I will be left with no family. I will be left standing all alone on the face of this earth a lone being. I hope nothing happens to her. Over an out folks the next time we meet today evening will be hopefully with the good news that my mother is recuperating well and that everything went soon soon lor lor [Hokkien for smooth sailing]. I won’t be able to sleep tonight so I guess I am just going to drink some scotch and find some amusement on the net, and perhaps chat with some of my online family. God Bless.

Taxi:

2005-08-06T01:13:00.000+08:00

Taxis plying the Maxwell area should have their licenses revoked and banned from renting or driving in a Cab company, let me tell you why……

Ok so I was sitting in my Taxi Cab talking to this Cab driver over a month ago, and sympathizing with him the ridiculousness of adding to the already strong Taxi operators and their huge fleet of Cabs [ All the new Companies ]. If I see him again today I will tell him in no uncertain terms that the Government was right after all. I spent almost 2 hours waiting for a cab in Maxwell road from 9:30 to 11:30 when I finally gave up and called a bloody cab.

I saw hundreds of Taxis going around me with their on call signs. Some had On call logos on them even though they had Cab tops which could display their Availability. They even went a few rounds around the same URA center and Food alley near to the Bank of China. I was then told by my mother’s friend that it would rain diamonds if anyone can flag a Taxi around that area without a Booking or a call.

They have the cheek; they have the cheek to complain that the government added to their existing burden. This if I may assume is not the only area with a problem, I have heard of similar occurrences in Yishun, Tuas, Kranji and a few other areas.

If they deem fit to play around with the system in such an abrasive and un-customer orientated action, and yet raise their fares I am wondering if the raising of the Call and Booking charges will have an adverse effect on the Taxi drivers state of mind.

Will we get to a time when we have to call or we wont get a cab? ……..

Plants:

2005-08-05T15:59:00.000+08:00

I took some pics of my plants and wanted to show them off here. All the plants in these pics were grown from seeds and planting they were not store bought. They are in a very funny way related to me like my children. In the view that I am the caretaker, father and confident. Yes Plants talk and No I am not crazy, not yet anyways....

Camera:

2005-08-03T19:47:00.000+08:00

Just bought a new Camera, and am Having fun with it. Looks great, with the normal Sony inspired asthetics. Kinda busy today so just gonna post some shots, with the new camera and am gonna call it a day.

Winter:

2005-07-29T02:18:00.000+08:00

I met her in the early part of February one year. I clearly remember it was raining that day, because she walked into the back part of my office totally soaked. That was the first time I saw her. She was just another girl, I smiled she smiled back. I then went on to adjust my tie in the men’s room and got back she was not there. I enquired after her and found out from KH that she was working in 5C under Mr R. It was my second week at my new job.

We met a few days later, whilst stealing a smoke on top of the building, we got to know each other and we became kind of close. It was through her that I met AF too, we got real close the four of us.

The first time I really saw her eyes was that evening, when we all stayed back after work and goofed around in my office. Sitting around the counter we talked about how we felt about each other. We each took turns emptying out our hearts to each other. KH told me how he trusted me, he said he would give me a million dollars and leave it with me without worrying: and that was how much he trusted and knew me, which is really a paradox now that he hates me to the core, never answers my calls and refuses to meet up with me. AF told me how much she was happy in getting to know me and how much she looks forward to our smoke breaks “I have quit smoking now for more than half a year”. It was her turn, she told me how when she first met me she thought I was a stuck up guy and what not, but she looked right at me and told me how much meeting me meant to her and a few other things I can’t seem to recall.

That was the first of many times, I found myself looking into her eyes. It has been many years now since that night of honesty in PSC 5a; we have grown so far apart. We do talk and we are still friends, we seem to have this compressed unique ability to talk to each other has per normal, even with the barrier of months of conversational neglect and not seeing each other.

I told her once, that I would never fall for her and in that I would forever have her with me, acknowledging to myself the envisage that friendship was the key to enjoying each others company without burden.

It was all fine until, one day whilst I was driving to KL in Malaysia, I was listening to this guy on the radio talking how his marriage was not perfect but still beautiful because he married his best friend. I knew perhaps deep down inside my heart, I needed something more from her, something to hold, something to call mine.

I have this rule of living my life, I never feel sorry for myself. I never waste my time with things that are not mine, I never hunger for things that are not mine, and never will I ever be depressed or saddened by any one thing for more than a night. It was the result of a staggered childhood. Thus with my hardened heart, I wanted not one more day wasted to thoughts about her or in wining her heart.

I believe in this Ah Beng stereotyped attitude, “yours is yours” it will never run away even if you chase it away. I then took it on myself to concentrate more into my work and my walk with God and other stuff.

Well tonight my heart broke; I was told that she could be attached. If she is not the one I love why does it hurt this bad. I think my heart is finally facing the cold winter. I have this deepened urge to run to her to hold her face in my hands and look into her eyes, and just tell her that I love her. That even knowing she is with someone else is tearing me up inside. I feel like kissing her fore head and telling her that I would be empty without her. Why am I feeling all this, I have never felt this way before, I can just walk away from a 4 year relationship without a tear, I even slept peacefully, but here I am feeling this way for a girl, no a lady that I never knew I felt this way about. I no doubt am going to have a tough time sleeping tonight. The time is already going to be 3:00 am, oh how I wish I could just get to tell her the way I feel now. Will she ever know, will she ever find out? Maybe never, maybe she is with the one she truly loves now. Who knows, but I do know this one thing, even with so many relationships under my belt. I have never felt this much pain, knowing my friend was attached.

I feel like bringing her on a cruise again, just like the time we once went togather. I want to stand at the back of the speedbat again just like last time, with the salt spraying into our faces and the wind in our hair. I would do it the exact way it was, when we went. Just with one slight change, this time I would tell her how much I love her.

Whatever, if you’re reading this please do not feel sorry for me. I am strong, and I will survive, hey I am a man. I hope she is happy where ever she is, I guess I am just happy at having felt love for the first time in my life, an no! I do not need to justify it with the other party. My love will still stand even if she is not beside me….. Even if her hands are in someone else’s…. Life sucks.

Marriage:

2005-07-28T02:07:00.000+08:00

Well today was kind of weird for me, someone close to me just told me that her love for her husband is no longer alive and that it has died.

Now, I was taken aback by firstly her honesty and secondly her pure stupidity. I know this might trip on many toes and that I might be hitting some raw nerves on my way out. So my mind was like on the verge of telling my tongue, who in turn would have told my mouth, to tell my friend what a condescendingly ignorant, and for lack of a better word how immensely childish she was in her notion that love can die.

Now I am of the believe that if something had died, what she had been sharing with her husband for this 9 years was not love to start with. In my book love does not die, crushes die, lusts dies, lies die, fetishes die, good looks die, sex appeal dies and all the other inconsequential shallow burst of emotions die. Love can’t die.

I have been through many relationships and I would not dare call anyone of them love. Love can do many things to you and moving on is not one of them. The moment we start to think that love can be forgotten, moved and/or estranged then we are indeed doing a great disservice to Love. I am sometimes, seriously saddened by how some people attribute their mixed emotions and shallow wants to be the child of love.

If love could die, what else is there left in this world. I am divided in that if I should call up my friend “at the risk of me loosing her friendship” and tell her that it is my calculated and totally un-learned opinion that it was her infatuation on her husband that had died. Not her love.

What makes me so sure love can’t die some would ask, well it’s because I have seen love. No it’s not what you think either. I saw love when I was talking to this 86 year old Chinese woman in NUH hospital who was listening to me explain something to her, all the while hugging the hand of her husband who was sitting beside her.

Married for 56 years, the way he decided to hold the stubborn glass door fir her while they were leaving that was where I met love. No, love does not come differently to different people; it’s we who sometimes rush into things based on emotional highs triggered by countless influences. That is how we end up missing out on love that is how we miss the train. When looks, condos, race, short skirts, family, people, friends, perception make us miss out on real love. It is indeed sad when one ends up wasting nine years of her live, coated in the fabrication of a synthetic love and thinking when time comes something can make love die.

The marriage died, whatever there was it died.

Love did not die !
Love does not die.

Red:

2005-07-27T01:56:00.000+08:00

I know many people think the Ah Bengs in Singapore are just plain stupid in chasing after that “Arrowana” that is perfectly flawless and Pure Breed in it’s breeding.

Well in all seriousness I am also one of those jacks who have this veiled perception that somehow the Arrowana can become really red and beautiful. I came across a picture on A-Club the other day and I was like almost getting a concave optical orgasm when Hulin came on Messenger asking what I was doing. I then gave her, a link to what I was ogling at.

The perfect red Arrowana :

So just so you know we Ah Bengs are not totally chasing after an un-attainable dream by trying to get our Arrowana’s red/gold/ or any other color for that matter.

Just look at her, Chris Deburg’s song Lady in Red plays in the fore arrays of my mind while I look at that majestic red lady. Ok fine! It could very well be a He. So? Sue me !.

Retards:

2005-07-26T05:17:00.000+08:00

Ok wow, how no one sees that we has a nation have taken a step back in this Saga of a Distressed Organization build on public funds saved by the Almighty Government. What intrigues me into the retards that have somehow been brought up and into this country of ours? is we saw a screw up then we identified the source of the screw up, then we decided to sit back and smile while someone from the government was sent to “save” the situation.

Doesn’t anybody realize that we have just decided to give complete and irrevocable control to the government, in handling an issue where perhaps the court should have had jurisdiction over? How did we reach a point where an organization which was under public scrutiny and the focal point of a public outcry could be handed over to the government to decide, restructure and re-organize. Did we miss something along the way?

Do not mistake my ramblings to be against Mr. Gerard, I think that both he and his father are admirable both in character and standing in our community and country. I am on the other hand questioning the need for the government to step in, secondly and most astoundingly the legality of the government deciding on who should take over the interim CEO position. On finding that the funds collected by the public were miss-appropriated by the Management of the NKF, why did not the Singapore legal system come into play? Note: I am not an un-studied person ranting on the stupidity that it was very high for a CEO to earn 25 K a month. I am very well aware of the dressage of training and skills and form needed for someone to lead an organization. Problem is the pay and the remuneration needs to be valid and appropriate for that particular organization. True in the words of our former first lady, “Peanuts” for a CEO, wait … just wait if he was a CEO of Tan Kim Seng Private Limited or XiaXue Retard Woman’s Blog Magazine. It was a charity organization, the kind that begs for money and depends on our charity to run, so yes Mrs. Goh 25 K is rather steep, considering it is paid for by us who have Peanuts for pay packages nowadays.

We Singaporeans skipped our cereals the fateful day we let the government just rush in and save the day. Did we win? Or did we loose our legal system? Or did we just as a nation happen to give the government even more rights than they already should have to run their hand into anything and everything.

Retards…… we just have lost our freedom and our legal system in one rash move.

Dance:

2005-07-17T20:50:00.000+08:00

MoMO:

Ok folks it is official, I can't dance to more then 3 songs. I love to dance and so I hereby declare the start of my 189th attempt to loose weight.

We had some Tawny Port for a change, and it was a whole different experiance altogather. The port was strong and serious. The musky taste and the fact that we were drinking something that cost us over 400 bucks made us drink it slowly.

In anycase today I had lunch at Ghandhi's, good old home styled, tasty and spicy south indian dishes. It was good. I spent the day lazing around lounging from one sofa to my mothers bed to mine. Watching movies, and eating.

I hope and I seriously mean hope, that I get up in the morning early to kick start my 189th attempt to loose weight.

OK yall' I am bored and full and just way to lazy to blog anymore. Later !.

Mundane:

2005-07-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

Nothing much happened today. I went shopping today got myself like 10 bottles of Red Wine which alone set me back around $350 bucks. I bought all the house hold stuff and when I was checking out, I realised I would need four people to carry the stuff. I sat down and called Ah Hock who came down with his wife and oldest son Gary who is like 7 and can't possibly carry much.

We eventualy stuffed everything in the car. Jas, Ah Hock's wife helped me un-load the stuff at home and put everything where it should be. Jas, was all upbeat about us Hiting MoMo today night, but my Mum was not feeling all that great and both of them could not find someone to fill in at the last minute to care for both the kids.

I perhaps will hit MoMo tomorow, I would love to see all the old staff from China Black. I am personaly getting sick of seeing Adrians stuck up face, He did me no harm and all that. But there is like something un-real about that dude. He was was way cool when he was not a Manger. Who cares.

IN anycase I am all tired, we had to study Typology in Class today and after enduring a trip back from over the causeway, buying stuff, and then catching a cab all the way to class. I was huh ! what Typo what Logy. After praying for some added strength I managed to come away learning something.

I am gonna hit the sack now and I meant bed this time Joyce. I think I will be fast asleep even before I finish prayer. Hey it's the Sabbath everyone stop working!

Aids:

2005-07-15T00:59:00.000+08:00

Oh Boy here we go again, now people with Aids no longer have the privacy of keeping that information to themselves. The spouse will be told with or without the permission of the party involved.Please do not mistake this to be a mindless banter about civil rights. [ All though I do not understand what civil right we exactly have in Singapore].

Now supposing you have Aids: you go take a test. In all the other free countries in the world, it will be a confidential result. Now in Singapore it is no longer confidential, and the patient no longer enjoys Patient-Doctor confidentiality.

The supposed reason being engulfed in this whole issue is, the need to ostrasize the spouse from relative harm should he/she engage in sex without knowing it. I serioously am not a very legal person, but I am sure that this patron sign of the end of any liberal action in this country is breaking more Human Right's and Civil Right's clauses than I can count.

On top of all the rules, fines, and laws, we have finaly come to a point where we loose our personal right to confidentialty. Remeber folks back in the days when they asked people to come forward ensuring strict and utter secrecy, well now the CDC is now going through it's records to divulge all the assuumingly barring knowledge held wirthin. For lack of a better word. [PHUEY !]

This coming directly after the statement a few months back that a person can be forced to give his DNA even in a case where it could highlight his involvement. [PHUEY !]

I wonder what is the next Human Right that will be taken from us ? Perhaps we will know in another few months......

Legal:

2005-07-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

For those of you who have yet to hear the name James Spader. I have no words to describe the acute loss you have been suffering in your blurred reality. In writing this please let me declare my awe of His acting.

I have never been excited about any show in the recent years untill I first caught a Glimpse of him in the over run and un-exciting what was the shows name again... Oh Yeah, The Practice.

Now in one hour in a show created just for him, and around him I might add, he is rocking my Wed's nights without much fan fare, pure wit, perfect english and a coolness that I am going to start fasting for.

I hate everything on TV these days if it is not hyped up marketing/advertising it is down to earth ugly humanistic Reality Shows.

Ok Ok lost is an exception. Now for me a guy who rarely has got time to cathc anything on TV these days my Wed's night are now dedictaed to Boston Legal, yes that is the name of the show that was built around one man and one man only: James Spader [aka] Alan Shore.

No I am just not one of those guys who gets excited by TV shows or something cool or cute. In Fact it is the opposite i could not careless about TV and it's shows and/or about TCS for that matter. I think the last show to get me aroused would be the trilogy that they used to show late nights on Sundays in Channel I . The Law and Order Trilogy. Ok that is about all the promoting I can do for a guy on TV and save for my self any resemblence of un-gayness.

NKF:

2005-07-13T02:46:00.000+08:00

Imagine the audacity. Just Imagine, for the CEO of NKF to earn in excess of SGD $1.8 million. People are we really that stupid ?. We collectively earn an average of $3 K a month and we constantly donate to NKF's fund raises. Yet the people who need our hard earned money do not get it. It goes to the execution of Mr Durai's personal Mercedes Benz's Road Tax. I mean are we Singaporeans Really that stupid ?.

Do they need to have 8 cars at their disposal, while most of us take the the cars we pay for every month on an instalment, taxis, buses and bikes to work. VIP's suddenly cannot afford thier own transportation ? Aw come on !.

They have in excess of SGD $262 million as of July, dudes and dudetts wake up already that is what they have for reserve. Not taking into account what they have set aside for this years forecasted expenditure for the shows, patients and medical needs of the patients.

Chinese Drama serials: Yes even I did enjoy the new shows they had esp: Youfoo " Blessed"
but come on your not a Broadcasting company it's not even your money to spend like that. We donate our hard earned money so that folks " folks who are needy" get the medical attention they need and have some relief over the financial burden brought about by thier medical condition.

12 month bonuses, Cars, Benefits that most CEO's can only dream of, lavish expenditure, lavish furniture, extravagant renovations and mis-use of funds [ Use of public donated funds to pay for personal cars]. I am sure the person who earns somewhere in the millions can afford to pay for his own Taxes people !. Wake Up!. I send $200 monthly to NKF, money that I could have saved towards a great Holiday and I find the people in NKF misuse my money by travelling first class, and huge pay checks.

I don't understand, why do we Singaporeans always get half truths and get served with blunt orders and statements. We pay for pigeon holes that cost more that some 3 storey bungolow and get fined and are repeatedly asked for money every where we turn. We expect whatever little we have, that we donated to be used for the payment of medications and medical services period !.

Oh Boy I might sound like I got my shorts into a twist, but no guys and gals. It is just sad that while living in such an expensive country like this, where we will never get rich no matter whow we try, we stilll have the heart to donate, we are a gracious society and yet the money we give gets used for irrelevent and unessecary things.

I did not give my money for some amazon male money grubber to earn in excess of SGD $ 1.8 million. I gave it to the poor and needy....

I refuse to be stupid any longer, the redundancy of my donations will stop forever to this organization.

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The Fiasco

Disclaimer: The NKF organization mentioned in this blog is a figment of my imagination, the story is not true. I made it up. Durai is the name of my uncle who lives in Clementi. I disclaim myself from any lawsuits and legal statues, as the association of any person/persons, organization/organizations, and/or similarities with any news/shows/current events or any association with any person living or dead is purely coincidental. David Silas King. With The help of Prof: Vadan of David Nair & Vadan (Singapore).

Rain:

2005-07-12T17:22:00.000+08:00

It's raining now @ 5:30 pm just when I am supposed to drive the guys back to Danga Bay and hitch a ride back into Singapore. Here in P.T.P, normal rain in the other parts of Malaysia always feels like a Thunderstorm here... you know it being beside the sea and all.

Mum suggested we go shopping today after I come back to Singapore, for some good food and to buy some house hold stuff. Looks like I will be late, Gotta' call her soon and share the weather here with her. I was invited to go down to Dubliner's today for some partying by Jolene, Richard, Ah Yap, Stanely and Jessica, but I decline. The interesting side note would be that, I declined not for right winged self satisfying rejection of anything Christian. I just simply do not see the purpose or reason behind Clubbing anymore. I know, I know dude's and dudettes this coming from the guy who owns 5 memberships kind of, cliche' .

I am just drawn more to the Bible, life, and Prayer these days. I find that I am having a growing distaste for all things secular. Blah ! Blah ! Hey but this is my 7th month quitting smoking cold turkey. Glory be to God. In Tamil they have this saying, one leg in the boat and one leg on shore ain't gonna get ya no where. In line with that school of thought, I have decided to live purely for His name sake, I am still struggling with double mindedness sometimes. But hey ! I think His Grace is sufficient for me.

Like all Tuesday Nights in the recent months, I will stay at home and cath the re-run of "CSI". I am watching this season the second time first having seen it on Cable. My life is boring I know... But folks It's my life !. You will have to pry me off my sofa tomorrow from 12am to 1am to get me anywhere. Seeing Alan Shore rummage thru the Legalities and the Courtroom prying on the wavering and insecure minds of people, gives me a mental orgasm. No it's not a bad word. Get a Life will you.

Ok I might blog later now the rain, is sorta dying out so I guess I will go warm the MPV and get ready to head back to my homeland.... see you tonight.

Email:

2005-07-11T17:43:00.000+08:00

Email from my Boss: When are you coming back ?
One Half container filled with 7 series B.M.W Engines from germany, touched down in Malaysia's port [P.T.P] without padding, wrong container size, no restrains and an est: Damage at 5,080,000 Euros inclusive of fines and extra port duties. All unfortunately my headache.

There goes my dream of going to work late in the morning. I will have to reach Malaysia in the wee hours of Tuesday morning.

I seriously need a new Job !.

I mean it is not even any where near Oktoberfest for the Germans to screw things up this badly.

I think they must have ordered a 40 FT Container and found that they needed only a 2o FT Container. But hey now guess who has got to dance around the Port Insurance and Laden Weight Gate People.

Half Empty Container !
Brain dead Germans

Mum:

2005-07-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

Today had to take leave because mum was too sick last night, and after a call to NUH the doctor wanted to see her first thing in the morning.

I also woke up to find my Red Arrowana " Ang Leng" slow and moody. On a closer inspection I found that he had one of last nights dinner hiding behind the pump. After dislodging the frog from it's hiding place and feeding it to the moody fish. He was fast and furious again in the tank, just before me and my mum left for NUH.

My red Arro' knows who I am. It will do a dolphin swim around my 7 feet tank when I come back home. Initialy I thought it was the opening of the door that excited him. Now after 4 years, I know the greeting is only reserved for me.

I just got back from the Hospital, I saw my mother cough real bad today. It brought a tear to my eye. I wonder if God will give my mom a break after this cancer passes on. On a lighter and coloured note, The doc said my mum's cancer is shrinking at a fast rate.

I will blog later today, kinda bored and I think I better call Malaysia and find out what are my guys doing. Work seems to block out the part of my heart that hurts anyway. No harm in thinking of work is there ?

Cancer

2005-07-10T15:06:00.000+08:00

My mother called me while I was in KL one late Friday night, and she asked me to take leave for the following Saturday. She had an appointment. That Saturday we left the Doctors office both shocked and numb. My Mother was told she has, "Invasive Ductal Carcinoma". She had Breast cancer: in her left breast. The doc's words were " I have never seen such a fierce version of ductal cancer ". It was fairly windy in our lives and we decided to take it in our stride.

It was a day away from Valentines, I was going to tell the girl I like that......... Blah ! Blah !

It was Sunday, it finally hit me. My mother had cancer and it was not going to be an easy ride. The doctors were treating her diff' from other breast cancer patients. In fact they wanted to do research on her.

It was a worldwind affair I agree, but now almost 6 months later and with my mother in her sixth cycle of chemo and her Operation only a month away. I can't help feel that we all have somehow grown closer, stronger and more prudent. Life is for us to live it, and so rightly so.

My mum is Reading Romeo & Juliet the new Italian version !
My Mum after her Chemo �_�
Life is about Living !
My mother continued to work without carnage sometimes, going to work directly after her Chemo session. She was always strong, willfull and Prayerful. I guess I have no excuse in my Life to let any failure break my stride. My Mum is the pillar for my strength and faith.

Breast Cancer hits 1 in 10 Singaporean women. My mother sought early, treatment and she was ostrasized due to the Mamogramm she was invited to take. I hope everyone supports and encourages women in thier lives, Mum's, Aunties, Sisters and anyone close who are above 40 to go an take a Mamogram atleast once a Year.

It Saves Lifes.................

About Me:

2005-07-10T13:04:00.000+08:00

Hi I am David, I live in Hougang and work in Malaysia. I work for B.M.W asia in Malaysia's PTP Port.

I love the small and simple things in life and I am not afraid of showing that I love and like them.
I love my Mother who is suffering from Breast Cancer now and I love animals and Nature. I love above all else my God and Saviour Jesus. In any case this place is for me to rant on.... and on.... about how I feel when I feel it and why I feel the way I do.

My greates priority, in life is my Family and my Friends. I love songs that have great vocal and have a meaning. I am basicly into old and slow rock love songs, but I think comtemporary Love songs are getting old real fast with me, same old theme same old heart break.

I am learning alot about myself, my life, my homeland [ Singapore ] and how things are done.

I use alot of "I"'s because I think if you cannot respect and love yourself, it will take a whole load of crap to convince someone you are important and for them to respect you.

Beauty is only skin deep, and yes I am saying that esp: because I am not handsome. Ha ! Beauty and good looks do open door ways but not forever. Your style and compassion and humanity is what stays with people and opens real doors with real people. So I say again beauty is skin deep Only.

I am kinda tired you know this being my first day and all, perhaps I will Blog again tommorow.

Just thinking of stuff....
Life is about Living !